I croaked when I saw my last blog post date - March 15?? - Paxton was 8 months old... now, its a month later, April 14th, Paxton is again a month older.... he is 9 months old. This has been a HUGE month for our sweet man. I feel like he has physically grown alot, but also developmentally. I made a promise to myself when I decided to be an "out of home" working mom (I say that because stay at home mom's work full time too - just in the home - it's a fact :)) that I would do my very best to stop and pay attention and soak him in as best I could despite the world going on around us. There are times when I am proud of myself for doing it, and then there are other times when I want to kick myself for wanting to just sit on the couch and close my eyes for 10 minutes when I get home from work. With our life being so busy his 9th month of life, I tried really hard to savor the moments we did have together and when I did, I learned alot about him. I decided to try it in other areas of my life too; prayer, work, marriage, etc. just to see what I could learn, notice and appreciate. Ok, I am getting a little deep here but bear with me... I challenge you just to try it. There were some decions we have been praying about that were answered... there we things in our marriage that we learned, tweaked and are better for... there were things in Paxton that I noticed and could appreciate, there were qualities in my students at school I had never noticed before. I really learned to listen, be still, quiet and focus on the things around me, the thoughts in my head, and I am better because of it.
One of the biggest things I noticed about Paxton this month was that I am slooooowwwllly seeing the "baby" slip out of him. The way he eats, the way he plays, the way he looks at the world around him. He is a little person, always has been, duh, but he is really starting to come into his own. He is so aware of the things around him...new places, people, food, etc. He now stops and wants to look and check things out first. He is wanting to do things on his own.. put his own paci in his mouth, crawl everywhere, stand up on his own, feed himself, he points to the toys in his bun in the bathtub, at night while I am putting him to sleep he wants to hold his paci and take breaks from his bottle and put his paci in and then wants his bottle again :), he wants me to just lay him down to fall asleep (less rocking), he reaches for things he wants and cries until he gets to it or I get it for him, he wants to see and touch everything and lastly, he is obsessed with the dogs and cat and he wants me - all the time - :) ha! I love watching his "determined face" which is what we call it...Matthew has this face and as if Paxton doesn't look enough like him, their faces are identical. He has started saying MOMMA! He has said dadda for a while, and now he is saying Momma. :) I love how he looks at us... he looked at us before, but now I catch him watching me all the time... I tell him everything I am doing, I feel like I am running my own cooking show because I talk my way through cooking a meal, he thinks I am just talking to him :). I'll be holding him or playing with him and he'll turn around and just look at me and smile, or I'll be changing his diaper not even looking at him and then I'll glance his direction and he will have been looking at me the whole time and will just flash a huge smile. He looks at us for encouragement - when he's crawling he will look back to make sure were watching. He looks at me with those big beautiful blue eyes and my heart melts. He knows he is making us laugh. He will make a silly sound, face or throw a "fit" and we'll start laughing and he'll look up a grin... I love that.
We took pictures in the bluebonnets with some good friends the Heberts and their precious daughter Harper. It was sunset and Paxton was in the best mood and it was one of those moments I stopped and had a realization - "Katy, you can check this dream off of your list". For years, I dreamt (go ahead, make fun of me if you want) of taking pictures in the bluebonnets with my little family. We had planned, scheduled, prayed Pax would be in a good mood, busted my tail to get home, freshen up, changed, get him changed, make it to Montgomery on time - I was stressed, tired, frustrated I couldn't find my strapless bra and then at some point I realized, ok, we are here. Slow down........and enjoy (I had a beer at dinner that night - on a Tuesday- gasp)!!!. I will cherish our Texas bluebonnet pictures.
We celebrated Easter with my humongous family - what a day. All I can say is that I have the best family in the world. Perfect?? Far from it... real... 100%. We have so much to feel blessed about - more than I can list; but towards the top were the 4 healthy new babies we can thank God for. You can see the circle of life in our family turning and it is beautiful.
I don't know how much Paxton weighs, how long he is, his percentiles or any of that yet because well, we're busy and that appointment is sometime next week. All I know is that he eats, is healthy, he is crawling, babbling, waving, growing and doing everything the baby book says he should be - so for now.... I am going to just stop and soak up my sweet Pax man and thank our Lord for the beautiful life he has given me.
Matthew completed the Galveston Ironman 70.3 - we were so proud of him!
"Do not take my picture"
Until Next time... lots of love!
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