11 Months

Where did the past month go?? Oh, I know... wrapping up the end of the school year, wrapping up my classroom, wrapping up bridal shower, baby shower, bachelorette gifts and wrapping up my role as a full time teacher, mom and wife to transition to purely a full time stay at home mom and wife.

From May 14th to June 14th which is Paxtons 11 month life, we were so, so busy and I found myself just repeating... breathe, breathe, breathe... I mean c'mon, I haven't blogged in a month and a half... this is not by choice... this is because I haven't had a spare moment of time.  

I said in my last post that 10 months was my favorite month but I have just come to realize that every age is going to be my favorite.  Every day as Paxton's mom gets better and better.  He is so funny and doesn't even try to be... which is one of my favorite qualities about Matthew.  Pax amazes me, on a daily basis, with his curious little self.  He wants to see and do everything I do.  It is so precious.  He is becoming so confident and I love it... Don't get me wrong, I do love when he wants his mommy, but, I also love that he explores and wants to do things on his own.  I think that's important.  I let him play on the nasty, germy equipment at the mall *gasp* and he LOVED it.  I was one proud momma while I sat back and watched him and Matthew play together (then rushed him to Sears and scrubbed him raw).  His favorite games are any and all that require "getting him" whether it be to chase him, tickle him, tackle him, etc.  He loves to be chased.  I have a feeling I won't like this so much when he starts walking.  I think it's cute now but I'm probably making a mistake by encouraging it.  For example... I was in the Forever 21 dressing room with him and he wanted out of his stroller.  I figured why not??... he'll be contained in the room.  Well, stupid me didn't notice that the clearance between the dressing room door and the floor was like 2 feet so I set him down (meanwhile I am not dressed) and next thing I know, his little hiney has crawled out of the dressing room and he is sqealing and laughing (chase me mommy!!!)  I threw on a dress and flew open the door of the dressing room only to find him smiling proudly at me in the aisle.  Dear Lord. 

He has also learned how to throw a "fit"... I'm not sure what to do with this.  My degree from A&M is in Child Development so you would think I would be able to tell when a child can logically "work" their parents... This has been a challenge.  I can't tell if he knows what he is doing and is making the choice to "throw a fit" which includes, leaning back and crying the fakest cry you have ever heard or if he just knows he is upset and isn't sure how to respond (which is completely normal).  I thought parenting was hard when he was teeny tiny but I have a feeling I am about to say I had no idea what hard was.  :) 

I am thankful on a daily basis for the grace and mercy both Paxton and Matthew give me as a mom.  I had a few uh oh, I suck moments this month... being super busy with the end of the school year, abandoning home cooked meals, clean house, quality time with my boys...the dressing room incident, we went to Ironman Texas (spent the day outside) and when I thought Paxton was just tired or hungry I didn't realize he had been bitten by ants (hence the picture of his sweet little toes), we were out in the 'country' with our good friends Jennifer and Jacob and Paxton went from being perfectly happy to screaming and yes, he was hungry, but it was hours later when Matthew discovered an incredibly spikey sticker bur stuck on the inside of his shirt.  We felt HORRIBLE... These events remind me of the Grace and mercy Paxton gives us on a daily basis hence the continued smiles, trust ,love etc... much like the grace and mercy our Lord Jesus Christ gives us on a daily basis.  We are all so blessed by this and I pray that as I make more "mistakes" and "oops" as a mom, Lord knows I will... I pray I'll be reminded of His grace and mercy and will feel renewed in my outlook and spirituality.  I pray the same for you...  

ant bites :(

Check out the sticker bur!!!

Pax helping Mommy put on my makeup

Bed head and big boy clothes - precious

My handsome boys...

Pammie and Grandmom with their grandbabies

 Our sweet yet busy boys.. Love these two!

 Until next time... lots of love!